NO REGRETS

this has been what i am telling myself all along. But there are some exceptional days. Today is one of them... everything had been going well in the morning. me, fad n siti even took a photo together... will post it soon...

there's a shipment to be prepared for one thai cust and i reminded the ppl about it. They said coolly that they have not prepared. And I asked, since you guys started yesterday, y aren't you all finishing it. one told me that he has left for home early the previous day n dunno what to do. The other told me that there might be some duplicate items n boss asked to put off. i asked him whether boss was really the one who asked to put off. he just kept quiet. i was so confused n i dunno how to make them understand about the urgency. the funny thing in this is that the creep which i'd mentioned earlier hadn't even come to the office till then. he's so called a manager who cares only to complain about ppl. frankly, i believe he has no qualities to be called a manager. he's no organisational skills and compared to my earlier manager, he's nothing but a chamelone. he likes to twist his words n if u r to speak to him continuously for 15 min, you'll soon wonder y u came there in the first place. he concerns about money and money only n he's not a good hand to let handle money. i've experienced that once n hope that's the end of it...

mm, so much to talk about him. None in the office like him. hey, no... i know two,three ppl who likes to be ard him. i better stop writing about him.... feels so eeriieeeeeeeeeeee.

my boss came in to the office n found out that nothing has happened. he's so tensed up. i just hate anyone to give him tension as soon as he comes in n that includes myself.. i feel so useless when he's tensed n was cursing inside. when he called the ppl inside, they were taking it in such a relaxed manner. i dun understand these ppl. coz of this, i was stressed up!!!!!!!! was in no mood to eat... tension boiling over all along.... feel so USELESS.... can i act as though no care in the world? i wanted to do something. if anyone has given me the permission, i'll be shouting my orders straight away.... vulgar words will be coming out, i think.. wonder who will listen though.... even at this time, i am still thinking about it n one of my colleague suggested earlier to go for a holiday n cool myself...

i think even if i were to go, i'll be still thinking about the probs at work. last few nights, were dreaming about office n work. am i being very emotional? i guess so!!! is being a sec the worst job in the world??? so far, i don't find any flaws in my boss or his works BUT dunno whether i am upto his standard... dats another worry though! my staying.. good or bad??? i still have second thoughts... oopssssssss............