axn next day

it's time yeah n i have not made up my mind
asked fad if she still wants me to stay,
she said U BETTER!!!

talked to my boss' bro about the situation i am in n asked him what his suggestion would be. he said STAY

i called up my new co n told them dat i'll not be able to make it. they had requested for an email notification n i drafted that out..

boss came in to w0rk n he looked better a bit.

had i told u all what my boss was doing the other day when he didn't come to the office. browsing books and talking to other retailers to kill his time.... come on, he's my boss!!!!! how can he do this? i felt very bad n thought y i am the center of attractions for all these weird happenings....

he came to the restaurant where i take lunch (isn't this too much??) and sat opposite me n asked wats my decision
i said that i'll stay n he has to announce to the staffs that i am staying. that was a brave thought n i didn't know from where i got the courage to ask him to do that. told him to stop favoritising me. he has done so much for me n i dunno what i can do to repay all that. whenever this thought enters myself, i am crying inside..

oh Allah, give me the strength to regain from my weaknesses n to be a saviour.

even though he's my boss, i treat him like a bro and care for him in the same manner. i don't expect him to treat me as a sis but just treat me equally like others. i don't want to get biased by him (maybe i feel biased since he is like approving whatever reforms i wish to have) .n because of this, i don't want people to use their tongues as swords when speaking to me.. i will shrink into my dream space n get little lost when others demotivate me or my work.

maybe i am too young n naive to realise about others view of me... hope time will strengthen me..